Showing posts with label Christ. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Christ. Show all posts

Sunday, April 12, 2020

Easter / Resurrection Thoughts...Could the resurrection signify more to us individually.

                                                                                                         Written on 4-21-19 Easter Sunday


Today, on Easter Sunday, we celebrate the resurrection of Jesus Christ, we celebrate a renewal of what once seemed lost. The loss of a Healer; a Teacher; a Comforter; a Guide; an Example; a Friend; and most importantly, a Savior. The literal view of Jesus’ resurrection brings His physical form back to life, and with it, the promise that all will likewise be resurrected. I believe there is more, much more than “only” a literal view of the resurrection; a view that has application over and over again in our lives.
I don't consider myself an artist,
but I will claim my efforts, and
the experience of writing and
drawing this piece. 

Resurrection, as stated in one definition as a “restoration to life”, is preceded by a “dying”, if you will; a “falling away”, or a “letting go” of something. However, until the resurrection, the death of Jesus seemed permanent; it was not just a “falling away”, or a “letting go” of something; it seemed as an ending. An ending, even after Jesus told His disciples “[I] must go unto Jerusalem, and suffer many things of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised again the third day.” (Matthew 16:21) We see in verse 22 that, at least Peter did not understand Jesus’ words. “Then Peter took him, and began to rebuke him, saying, Be it far from thee, Lord: this shall not be unto thee.” Jesus responds to Peter “Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men.” I do not consider myself a scripture scholar, but what I see here is Jesus perhaps speaking to the same part in Peter that He was speaking to in His disciples after having fed the multitude of four thousand with seven loaves of bread, and having but one loaf of bread with them in the ship. Jesus says to His disciples “Why reason ye, because ye have no bread? Perceive ye not yet, neither understand? Have ye your heart yet hardened? Having eyes, see ye not? And having ears, hear ye not? And do ye not remember? When I brake the five loaves among the five thousand, how many baskets full of fragments took ye up? And they said seven.” (Mark 8:17-20) Could it be that Jesus was not speaking to Peter, but to Peter’s “of men” understanding? Both Peter, and the disciples…and us, have something in common? Could it be that we see only with our physical eyes…our “of men” eyes, having eyes, yet see not, and ears, yet hear not…and have we forgotten? Or have we honestly and innocently while here in mortality never truly understood? Could it be that we “savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men”, like Peter? Could it be that we have forgotten the “things of God” that be within us…each of us…all of us…as one body.

Most understand the concept of Jesus’ physical resurrection. His physical body was brought back to life. Could it be that the physical resurrection is a surface view of resurrection? Jesus’ body was brought back to life…not just again, but anew, never to again experience death. Something indeed “fell away”, or was “let go” in order for Him to return as an eternal physical being. Could it be that there were aspects of His being that no longer served His purpose, or that no longer represented His deepest, truest self? Something that held Him back from His next step in progression. What if, in those three days-time between crucifixion and resurrection that not only were there aspects of His earthly being that “fell away”, but that other aspects of His eternal physical being were brought into His presence. Perhaps eternal truth, perhaps eternal light, perhaps eternal love.

Could Jesus’ resurrection signify more for each one of us in our own personal lives, much more than His physical form being brought back to life, and our own physical resurrection someday? Not to diminish His resurrection in any degree, but to add to the meaning and application of how Jesus’ resurrection can have a present affect in our own lives now, today, and every day.

Could I, and each of us if we choose, look to identify aspects of our own selves that no longer serve the higher purpose of our being? Could there be aspects of who we think we are, or are not, that hold us back? That hide who we truly are on the deepest, truest level, that if “let go” or if we allow to “fall away”, would bring out more of the eternal beauty that lies just underneath? We need not go looking for it outside of ourselves in other people, or in things with our physical eyes, ears, and logic…for it is found within; it is found with the eyes of the heart; the ears of the heart; knowing that Self, that YOU, and YOU, and YOU, and each person…EVERY person, is made of divinity. When we begin to “let go” of that which is not divine within ourselves…the “of men” aspects, we begin to see the divinity that has been there all along; glorious, light, love, and truth. We begin to see past others non-divinity and “of men”ness to the divinity within them as well. Compassion comes, light comes, love for neighbors come. Patience comes. Gentleness comes. Not only do these come as outward expressions towards others, but inward expressions toward self. There is a lot of talk of self-esteem and self-confidence. Imagine having more self-compassion, more self-patience, more self-kindness, more self-forgiving, and more self-love. This “Self” aspect does not truly originate from within our selves, but from God, the Divine, the grand Self, The I AM; the Giver of Self to each of us. This Self has no beginning and no end, therefore there is no end to compassion, kindness, patience, forgiveness, and love that can be experienced both inward to self, and outward toward others.

Could we, during this day of resurrection and renew, look for the “of men”ness in ourselves, that once recognized, can fall away. Or could we find an “of men” aspect in ourselves that we can just let go of? As we do, we renew…we uncover a bit more of the divinity within…we allow a resurrection of the divinity to take place within us that has been in darkness for days, likely more than three.

I think it is appropriate that resurrection, and renewal are associated with Spring-time. A falling away of the old, a time of rest; then with Spring, all things are again made new, including you. This not only happens with the change in seasons, but daily. We arise each day renewed…another day, another start, a fresh start. Could a deepest and truest self-resurrection of sorts occur at any moment? To this I say…It could.

Sunday, September 13, 2015

The Source of Life's Savor.


The point I attempt to make in this post is this: Wellbeing, peace, joy, wholeness, love, and gratitude, are only connected to mortality (money, career, material possessions, education, any type of status other than Child of God, friends, family situations, etc.) as we allow them to be, and until we recognize their true, immortal source, and attach them there. The immortal source of our wellbeing is God, our father, and through the atonement of our Savior Jesus Christ we have the opportunity to overcome mortality. Knowing and trusting the immortal source of our ever-enduring worth while in mortality can be a Heaven on Earth.



The Source of Life’s Savor.



I currently have $47 in my checking account and zero in my savings account. By the end of this week I will have less in my checking account. I have just under $20,000 of debt, and I work as a merchant application underwriter. I am 35 years old, and will be 36 in two months.

As I drove home from work tonight (9-8-15), the gas light came on in my car. I stopped at the gas station to do as I have done over the past few months, to put $20 worth of gas in my car, making sure I didn’t spend it all in one place. As long as my car has gas, I can keep going to work. I bought some groceries yesterday, $33 worth at Wal-Mart. I came home, and with the groceries I made some homemade guacamole, and baked an ear of corn to make Elote. As I was cutting the green onions for the guacamole, I felt somewhat as I imagine the widow of Zarepath felt, but on a lesser degree. If you remember, she gathered sticks to make a meal with the last of her oil and flour, for her and her son to eat, then die. I know that that meal will not be my last (I hope not anyway), but I felt like I was using part of the last that I had, as there is not money for more until next week. We recall that the prophet Elijah asked her to make a cake for him first, then for her son and herself. If she did this, the jar of flour would not fail, neither would the jug of oil run dry until the Lord sends rain again upon the land. Again, as I continued to cut the green onions, I began to feel a gratitude that was not familiar, a gratitude for the fact that this meal was going to be just as delicious as it had always been. Gratitude that even though I had used some of the last of my current resources to purchase the ingredients, and that my financial situation is what it is right now, the goodness and the savor of this meal would not be diminished.

Over the course of my life when financial resources have been limited, I would allow that circumstance to affect all areas of my life in a negative way; I would allow it to “change the savor” of my life, and life wasn’t as good. I would worry, worry, worry; I would feel physically ill. These rough financial situations would disturb my spiritual, emotional, mental, and social wellbeing, as well as physically as I have mentioned. I would decrease my social interaction because my mind was completely occupied with the stress of the situation, and I wasn’t myself. I felt like I was less; less than I should be, less than I had previously been, less than others (and I) expected. I felt like a failure, and unworthy to be around people. My entire wellbeing was dependent on having money, and when the money I had went below what I thought was acceptable for myself, my wellbeing went down with it. My wellbeing was attached, and dependent on the amount of money I had. It doesn’t help that I have been so determined to change my financial situation, that I have made several decisions to invest in this opportunity, and that opportunity; which only perpetuated more of the same. That is another story. Over the course of the past 2 ½ years I have changed my source of wellbeing, and it was significantly noticeable tonight. As I continued to prepare dinner, and continued consciously be grateful for it, I recognized also that felt peaceful; I wasn’t stressed, nor was my worth was tied to my financial situation. I was whole; I was loved; my worth had not lessened; and life still tasted good. I knew that God loved me just the same, and that I loved me just the same. Two years ago when I started taking these steps to improve, I knew that there would be sacrifices and difficult times. What I have learned, and specifically recognized tonight, is that what I am sacrificing are all of the negatives I experienced previously: the fear, the stress, the attachment of my wellbeing on every level to my finances; I am separate from my finances. Money is an object, has no feelings, nor is not alive. It cannot determine, nor control, nor have any say in my wellbeing unless I give it that power. I no longer give it that power; it has been given to God, as has my fear, and the attachment of my wellbeing to my financial situation. In place of what I have “sacrificed”, God has offered peace, love, wholeness; and I trust that the jug of oil will last, and the jar of flour, remain.

I am whole, independent of anything, through the atonement of my Savior Jesus Christ, and my offering up to Him of fear…that is all it was, fear. It is replaced with love, trust, and confidence in Him. He provides the way each and every day despite my imperfections; His ways are higher than mine, and I am so glad for that. It is beautiful and comforting at the same time that I am never left alone. He provides the way patiently as I learn, and as I stumble at times; even through the stumbling there is a way, there is always a way. I don’t have to go alone, for He is always with me, showing the way with a loving, strong arm which is ever reaching out to me. He is the way to lasting peace. He knows me, and I am learning who He is to me as we develop a personal relationship. I love Him, and I am grateful for the peace He offers in place of sacrificed fear. He lives; He must; He has to! In His name, Amen.

Sunday, February 1, 2015

The love of God, and the Savior - Charity




The lesson today in gospel principles was on charity. There were great comments regarding charity, what it means, and the difficulty in gaining this attribute of Christ for ourselves. A comment was made suggesting that charity can be gained by acting out of love, care, and compassion for, and towards someone else, rather than feeling obligated to do so. If acting out of love, care, and compassion for someone else, then we will have desires and energy to serve those who could use the help we can offer. It is the idea of feeling compassion towards someone, recognizing that there IS something I CAN do to improve a situation, wanting to do so (out of that compassion), and acting accordingly, that allow charity to sprout within us. The conversation then went the route of putting others needs before our own. Then, it went the route of how much easier it is to love others than it is to love ourselves because we know ourselves better than anyone. We know our flaws, our weaknesses, our shortcomings, and our sins, so it’s easier to love others than it is to love ourselves. It was at this point in the discussion that I started to feel some dis-harmony with what was being said, and truths that I have learned for myself over the past couple years. I speak from my own experience, as there was a time I cared for, and served others more than I cared for, and took care of myself. Over the course of years, I was emptied. I was more than emptied. I reached a point where I was giving something that I did not have. I had not been taking care of myself mentally and emotionally while giving mental, and emotional support to others. I realized I could not continue to maintain certain relationships as they currently were, and be ok myself. My experience is not an example of what it means to put other’s needs before our own. Why had I not been taking care of myself? Because I cared about others more than I cared about myself, I didn’t know how to take care of myself. My life experience has shown that I care for the things/people I care about, and I wasn’t high on my own list. My more recent life experience shows that I am better able to care about others, and help others, when I have first taken care of myself. When I take care of myself, I have that which I can give to others, love, which in my experience, is the foundation on which charity is built. Even the definition of charity says so, being, the pure love of Christ. I believe that Christ acts out of his love for each of us in charitable ways we can describe as, merciful, gracious, patient, consistent, kind, caring, forgiving, gentle, compassionate, encouraging, understanding – ALL UNDERSTANDING, and infinitely present, to name a few. When I am taking care of myself mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically, and socially, I can act out of love (charity), and present some of those same adjectives in my daily interaction with others, AND I can be those adjectives to myself because I am very high on my list these days.
How did I manage to move my name to “very high” on my list? When I realized that God’s love for me, and The Savior’s love for me were independent of anything, and UNCHANGING, my own view of myself changed. My love for myself was less than desirable, in fact, I didn’t know how to love myself, and somehow, I assumed that God’s love for me was similar to my love for me. I didn’t know how to let love in, from me or anybody really. God did, however, miraculously show me that His love is completely independent from how I feel about myself, as is my Savior’s love for me. Even how I was, in that very moment, God, and His son, loved me, and I could feel it! I felt it like I never had before. I thought, “If God loves me, and my Savior loves me, which I know they do because of the way I feel it, then why can’t I love and accept myself in a similar way? If they love me, then I can love me.” I had been holding myself up to a standard in order to “be” accepted by God, and good enough for Him to love me, hoping that someday it would be worth it, and that He would see that I AM good. Two things: 1. I don’t have to put a standard above what God does in order to “prove” that I am good enough, even for His love. He loves His children, period. He is our Father, and we are created in His image. He sent his Only Begotten Son to live, and die for us so we can live with Him (God) again. Is that not love!!! 2. Throughout the creation, God “saw that it was good.” It’s not until the last verse in Genesis 1, after the creation of man, that “God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, it was very good.” God creates only “good things”, even, “very good” things, and people. We are each good enough for His love. He loves each of us independent of how we feel about ourselves. If you don’t love yourself, or think you are not good enough for God’s love, let go of it. Let go of ALL the reasons why you don’t love yourself, or why you think you are not good enough, and ask God to replace those reasons with His love. He already loves you; I don’t know that He can love you more than He already does.
When we let God’s love into our hearts and lives, and when we allow His love for us to define how we feel about ourselves, it is then that we can truly obtain charity, because God’s love is sustaining. It allows us to expand. It multiplies as we act from it, divides as we share it in charitable ways with those whom we interact, and it is ever increasing in its reach.
4 Challenges:
1.                   Believe that God loves you, because you already are “good”.
2.                   Let go of the reasons you don’t like, or love yourself, make a list.
3.                   Let God’s love fill the space where those reasons have been residing.

4.                   Find ways to be charitable to yourself (remember the adjectives).

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

In the falling leaf, and in a loving smile.

"But behold, the righteous that hearken unto the words of the prophets, and destroy them not, but look forward unto Christ with steadfastness for the signs which are given, notwithstanding all persecution-behold, they are they which shall not perish. But the Son of righteousness shall appear unto them; and he shall heal them, and they shall have peace with him." 2 Nephi 26:8-9

I don't believe there is a "level" of righteousness that must be reached in order to receive the blessings of having Christ appear unto us; be healed by Him; and have peace with Him. I am not saying that He will physically appear unto us, He has appeared to some, and may again according to His will. What I am saying is, as the creator of "the Heavens and Earth, and all things that in them are" (3 Nephi 9:15), Christ appears unto us every single moment...of every single day. He is there, in the very air that is breathed, in the falling of the leaves from the trees, in the ground on which we walk, and in the dirt from which life springs. He is in the warm sun, the source of all energy. He is in the passing of each day as the earth rotates; and in each season as the earth orbits the sun. He is in the cry of a baby, in every kind smile, in every act of kindness, and in every tear. He is there, to hear our prayers, to answer our prayers; to know all our deep feelings. He is there to rejoice with us, to laugh with us, and to cry with us. He is there to hold my hand, and your hand. He is there when we pray, and plead for others. He is our "advocate with the Father...pleading" our case (Doctrine and Covenants 45:3). He is there, as my "friend", and as your "friend" for, "greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends" (John 15:13). He truly sees us as His friends. The moment we recognize His "appear"ance in the fallen leaf, the warmth of the sun, or a loving smile, you will feel His presence, there in your heart, and you will know, that He knows YOU, and that you ARE His friend. Look for His "appear"ance. Let Him heal you. Have peace with Him.

I believe that once we have witnessed His "appear"ance in our lives, been healed even a small amount, and have felt peace with Him, our desire for righteousness and obedience will increase, that His "appear"ance in our lives will increase. This, not due to an increased effort on His part to be more present in our lives, but instead, due to an increased effort on our part to look for Him, and recognize Him, even in the fallen leaf, and in a loving smile. His infinite effort to be present in our lives has already been given in the atonement, the atonement is enough; it encompasses all, otherwise, it would not be an "infinite atonement" (2 Nephi 9:7). It is our recognition of His "appear"ance in our own lives that must increase.

Related Scriptures:
Doctrine and Covenants 110:4
                         9:5
1 John                   2:1
Alma                    34:12
2 Nephi                 25:16
                         2:14
Mormon                   9:11
3 Nephi                  9:15
Ether                    4:7